星情 和自己對話 傾聽內心的聲音 一個專屬於我的空間 不需要誰來定義

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很悶.....
                                                                               
人家說"日久見人心"
                                                                               
還真的一點也沒錯
                                                                               
以前覺得同事人都很好
                                                                               
是工作壓力中支持我的力量
                                                                               
就算工作內容再怎麼討人厭
                                                                               
只要有好同事、好的工作氣氛就還可以接受
                                                                               
然而現在的情況似乎顛倒
                                                                               
自從主管、同事換血後

整個工作氣氛頓時也風雲變色
                                                                               
過去的夥伴離開的離開了
                                                                               
剩下的關係通通變質
                                                                               
甚至人人自危的情形也一一浮現
                                                                               
面對這樣的狀況不僅令我傻眼
                                                                               
現實的情況、職場的醜態、人性的自私、、等等
                                                                               
更是令我心寒 失望 沮喪 無力
                                                                               
平日工作已經夠悶了
                                                                               
可悲的是回到家非但不能放鬆
                                                                               
竟是另一種壓力的壟罩
                                                                               
喘不過氣來的我

有很深...孤立無援的寂寞感
                                                                               
幾次絕望之下
                                                                               
甚至灰暗到想放棄一切
                                                                               
為什麼妳是我姊姊
                                                                               
為什麼連妳都這樣對待我
                                                                               
為什麼人性是這樣的醜陋
                                                                               
還有誰能夠相信 該相信些什麼
                                                                               
活著的意義是什麼
                                                                               
只想單純地為了自己而活
                                                                               
卻又為何要有這麼多討人厭的人事來阻擾
                                                                               
揮不去 扯不清 離不開

最痛苦的是 我狠不下心
                                                                               
一直以來都好累喔
                                                                               
身體累了可以補眠
                                                                               
心累了呢?!