tabby的世外桃源 臺灣為根，溫哥華是第二故鄉，曾在安大略省停留，目前定居於薩斯克其萬省。 當我把一切交給天父，我發現處處是桃花源。

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Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

今天看電視時聽見這首歌，以前收音機裏聽過幾次，從沒注意歌詞，現在卻有特別的感觸，感覺似當時離開臺灣的心情，一心想擺脫束縛，逃離牽絆。

青少年時的我是很叛逆的，不同於一般叛逆的少男少女，表現在行為上變成問題少年，我把所有的叛逆藏在心裏。不抽菸，不喝酒，不用藥，不交壞朋友，在學校完全融入群體，人緣不錯，成績好，還得過幾次模範生哩。一回到家卻像換個人似的，沈默寡言，與家人疏離，把自己關在想像的世界。那個世界，時而美好，多半是灰暗的，卻令我感到安全。

一個人的個性是天生，或者會改變？小學時的我是個呱噪開朗的女生，六年級時搬到臺北市，似乎是蛻變的開始。開始有自己的想法，和父母的磨擦變多。母親特地和老師懇談，請老師當溝通橋樑，誰知那橋樑是不歸路，通往更深更深的封閉與對立。自那天起，我從天真爛漫進入黑暗的甬，至今仍不確定是不是已完全破繭而出，感覺上有一部分的我失落在那裏，找不到出路。

十八、九歲已很遙遠了，有時記憶會帶我回去，愈來愈多的時候，它只是一段過往，像許許多多的過往，終將模糊消失。不可思議地，偶然的一首歌又讓它清晰起來。